It’s been a while
So I haven’t posted anything on here in the longest but I felt like I had things to say today. I recently set a goal for myself to lose 30 pounds. I have changed my eating habits, I gave up drinking for an entire month and i’m going to the gym more than I ever have in my 28 years of life. It’s been good so far I don’t find myself hungry or wanting to give up. I have battled weight my entire life and I have to say this time feels so different. I don’t hate my body nor do I want to be a stick I just want to be healthy. I love my thick thighs, and wide hips. That being said tonight I had two moments that felt amazing. For the first time in my life I pushed myself through a side cramp as I ran. That would always make me stop or slow down but not tonight it made me push harder and that is a feeling I can’t really describe. It’s been about a year since my back issues began. Long story short I spent months laid up in pain that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. During this time I also found out that I have mild scoliosis that was a really tough thing to hear at my age. It brought up so many questions like why didn’t anyone see this when I was young? Is it going to effect me when i get pregnant?( Yes I think about that before most things) As I age will I get more and more curved at the spine? Now that I fully understand what I’m dealing with I feel better but know I have to take care of me. But the best thing that happened tonight is that for the first time since my back I can bend over and touch my toes!! That might seem like the smallest thing but for me it was monumental. I’m not where I was when my back was at its worst and that brought tears to my eyes. The pain I endured is something I never want to relive. Anyway it was a pretty amazing Tuesday!!